as. if.

it’s almost as if

my body

has suddenly realised

that I am

not going to give in to it’s craving and desire

and in doing so

is in mourning

<3

g

up for the challenge

the challenge,

[she thought]

is not to take this so seriously

the challenge,

[she thought]

is to stand in the darkness and and remember that you see this same when you close your eyes …

and since you know you are safe there

you are also

safe here

with eyes wide open

 

<3 ged/2.15.12

this too shall pass

i am wondering about being in the present moment when the present moment is one of heaviness and deep sadness.

i suppose this means not to negate it but to melt into it.

surrender to it

flow

but this can be hard because … here i am again …  enveloped in sadness

perhaps it is fighting it that prolongs it.

perhaps if i AM with it in this very moment the connection will be made and the train will pass without me actually boarding.

perhaps being in the moment with it will give it the acknowledment it craves. its own form of hugs a snuggles.

and then it will be on it’s way to play somewhere else. off to the playground where heaviness is its joy.

but not here. not here in this body and mind and soul.

let this pass.

ged / 2.12.12 <3

[submitted also on reikiflower speaks blog]