May 31, 2011 § Leave a comment
We are afraid of truth, afraid of fortune, afraid of death, and afraid of each other. Our age yields no great and perfect persons. – Ralph Waldo Emerson
Write what needs to be written, they said … so much fear and quotes on fear and prayers to gaurd us from fear have been popping up in my streams …
what is it we are afraid of?
what we are NOT afraid of?
my fears are that i will never get what i want … that time will slip along and those who are waiting for the butterfly to migrate will never get the chance …
that i may never fly.
or never birthed in the first place … ?
but fear is misplaced excitement … so then … !
May 13, 2011 § Leave a comment
i SO date myself and could give a flying firetruck … ;]
one of the things i love that i do for myself is the little notes i leave for me on my computer … my sign in for comcast says ‘Hello Gorgeous!’ the point is i am always leaving myself little winks and ‘hey there sexys’ and whether i believe it or not overall, i see it and smile for and to myself and … after a while the neurolinguistic alchemy begins to work it’s magic.
i am SO gorgeous ;)
where YOU been, you sexy thing … [sexy thing you ;]
May 11, 2011 § Leave a comment
“Though my soul may set in darkness, it will rise in perfect light; I have loved the stars too fondly to be fearful of the night.”
i have lived with soul darknesses my entire life. sometimes this will manifest as true depression. recently it lasted for 3-4 years and i was taking Prozac in order to quell the urge to step in front of a moving car and allow it it take my life [referred to as passive suicidal]
one must remember to open one’s eyes when she is in the darkness to see the stars … one must be reminded.
remember sweetness. remember.
muse. <3 g!
May 10, 2011 § Leave a comment
“… i loved you … grey sweat pants … no make-up … so perfect … … all at once comfortable and so broken in …” – comfortable/john mayer
this and a question from my mother in a channel this afternoon brought the tears that have been waiting/wanting to spill.
it’s such a beautiful day … <3
ps … no wonder my eyes have been itching. unshed tears ‘itching’ to be released. :)
May 9, 2011 § Leave a comment
insight from daily pages [3 pages every morning. spontaneous writing. no deletion. VERY tangential! ;] … i am out of sync.
will expand in a blog post on I M Muse …
May 6, 2011 § Leave a comment
i am not liking how i look today … and even more so, i am not liking how i feel when i think about not liking how i look today.
i am being unkind to myself and as i wince at the ‘cellulite’ that appears to be my belly … i touch my belly and then apologise and remind it [and Me] that, ‘ i love you, no. matter. what.’
it makes us both feel better. … and i am bringing my yoga mat back up to work with me next week. it’s just time to be That.